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Everything went silent forgetting that Camellia was still sitting in the room Thoughts filled my head , thoughts of Chris and my anger raged I got up with this anger burning in me and I started pushing things over and tumbling every where , my friend Camellia awakened and tried to calm me down “Grace calm down , its okay” she yelled sounding kind of frightened But I just couldn’t calm down , Camilla grabbed my arm and I swung back to make her let go her grip was tight I realized That I had something in my hand not aware what it was but when I threw my arm at her I realized she was on the ground not because I saw It , because I heard her body hit the floor . “ Camellia, are you okay” I said regretfully I didn’t know how she was but I smelt blood , and it was not my own. The nurse came in to talk to me , I knew it was the nurse because when she walked in a heard a scream of a girl, I didn’t know how to react I couldn’t see but this Nurse could. More people ran in I could feel the vibrations of the floor and I heard the questions flood the room. I couldn’t see the people but I knew they were staring directly at me. I heard the voice of a man but I couldn’t determine his age I didn’t know where he was but I knew he was talking to me “Mam, what happened?” A girl cut him off before he was going to continue saying what he wanted to say “What did you do to her “ she said.
The girl repeated again “ WHAT DID YOU DO TO HER “ she yelled in fury she grabbed my arm for me to speak , I felt her nails digging into my forearm her fingernails cutting threw the surface of my skin “speak you crazy bitch “ her words made it even worse her grip was even tighter then before. I was laughing , a laugh that started inside but then I started to yell “HAHAH so fucking funny “ I said sarcastically “I’m the crazy bitch ?” I said sounding kind of insane. I realized everyone was staring at me, I could feel there eyes on me no one blinked . Felt like something inside me changed, like I changed as a person that I was no longer sane “ YOUR ALL CRAZY “ I YELLED Looking around trying to determine where everyone in the room was.
I heard the sound of rolling come into the room, I realized it was a gurney they picked Camilla up and moved her to a different room. A doctor came in and sat directly in front of me I could hear him breathing and police man walked in and The man in front of me told him “ She got stabbed in the neck with scissors” the police office officer asked the man “ what should we do about this one?” I kind of realized he was talking about me. The same voice I heard before that women that I heard the yell earlier the women whose nails are printer into my skin “Move her to Whittingham”. My father died when I was thirteen, and the name Whittingham sounded familiar to me that’s where they brought my father, After he decided to kill my mother.
When I heard a know on the door, I realized I couldn’t really answer it so I decided to yell “Camellia, the key’s under the rug!”. I heard the door open and then she came inside. Since I couldn’t see, I mostly felt her gaze upon me. Since my eyes were blind, all of my other senses were heightened. I immediately felt her vibes of frantic emotions and she asked in a rush “What the hell happened?”. I sensed her looking directly at my knee. The pain was so intense that it was almost turning numb. Camellia picked me up not realizing she was even this strong; she’s always been one of the scrawny girls who seem to be helpless and I was usually the stronger one but right now, the roles are different. First, I know I was in a moving vehicle after she wrapped me in paper-towels to stop the pain was so intense that it was almost turning numb. Camellia picked me up not realizing she was even this strong; she’s always been one of the scrawny girls who seem to be helpless and I was usually the stronger one but right now, the roles are different. First, I know I was in a moving vehicle after she wrapped me in paper-towels to stop the bleeding and she slammed the car door. Second, I knew we were at the hospital when I heard the ambient sounds of people yelling to others about a gurney, and to rush me to the E.R. I couldn’t see anything but all I could differ was the lighting. The last thing I remembered before they knocked me out with medications I probably guessed was morphine, was Chris and what he would have done if he was here.
We lay back down on our separate sides the smell of sweat and passion still in the air when we looked at each other its like words weren’t even needed , we knew what each other wanted to say he was the first one to speak ‘I’m sorry Grace , I miss you I shouldn’t of left you for her , I want to us to get back together and settle down and start having a family you , me maybe even a Child to come “ Then everything turned black and I realized this was not even happening I started hearing the sound of silence it burned my ears and seared my sight colors were gone and light didn’t exist happiness was abolished This is what it is like to lose someone who you loved. I realized I was now awake but still unable to see I heard a chair move inside the room and said “ Who’s there?” I recognized The female voice that responded “its just me” The only thing I could possibly think of saying was “ oh” I was to tired to speak so I decided to lay there and listen. “They don’t know what’s wrong with you “ Camellia replied she didn’t wait for me to respond so she continued “I never seen a case like this before , Neither have they. They don’t know how to help you, How did this even happen?” That’s when I needed to say something and replied “ It was all his fault he left me for that harlot” I said gritting my teeth in anger.
Camilla asked “But that doesn’t make any sense how would you become blind because of someone leaving you?” I answered “ there are just something’s that cannot be explained in this world” she replied after what seemed to be along time “oh”.
A loud gasp came out when I opened my eyes to see nothing , only able to see a tiny bit of light the rest darkness. Monday August 13th my life ended or it seems to me as it has my relationship with Chris ended. Chris and I have been together for it feels like it has been forever but if I said that I would be lying. Without Chris I thought my life would be over ,Since I made myself believe he was my life.
When Chris moved him and everything else out of my house that belonged to him he also took my eyesight, when he left I became blind unable to see. Blinded from all the beautiful colors of the world. Unable to see I moved fast trying to grab a handle on reality I tumbled out of my double sized bed that I have just woken up from sleeping in and hit my face on the hard wood floor , Screaming as loud as I could but I knew no one was there no one could of heard a sound. I Tried to cry but not even one tear rolled down my face. Crawling on the floor panicking , running into things in my bedroom when if I could see I’d know exactly where it was.
I found my way to the door and managed to tumble down the staircase “BANG” to the ground I couldn’t realize if anything was broken because I was still in the process of wondering about my eyes and why I could not see. Touching my face and realizing there was a substance coming out of my nose and rolling down to my mouth and I realized it was blood.
I some how made my way crawling to the bathroom dragging my leg behind me because It’s been hurt I touched my knee and realized my bone was no longer behind skin and it was no longer attached to where it was supposed to be it was sharp , I began to panic even more when a memories of Chris flooded my head I guess it was not as bad then I totally put the fact I was hurt away I reached the bathroom after my knees hurt from hitting the floor pretty hard while crawling. I unrolled the toilet paper so I could clean the blood from my nose and where ever else it was coming from off when the toilet paper fell into the toilet , “Great” I said sarcastically out loud. I grabbed my cell phone out of my pocket realizing it was there and that I should have done this from the beginning clicking the little buttons and luckily knowing where the buttons are I called the first person I could think of , I called Chris but when I heard it dialling I forget that we weren’t on speaking terms that we were not together so what would I actually say if he responded there was no answer so I hung up before I heard the beep of his voicemail. I called my closet friend Camilla and when she answered the phone I started to talk very fast and unclear “calm down I didn’t understand a word of anything you just said” Camilla said and that’s when I took a deep breath and said everything.